Recently I have gone through some depressing and demoralizing things, from getting bad grades to losing the little drive in my life that allowed me to remain diligent about things I had to do. I think that one large aspect of my failure is the fact that I haven’t been submersing myself into God’s word enough. I might tell you that I don’t have any room in my day to have a quiet time but that’s simply not true. I could also tell you that I don’t need the Lord’s wisdom, but that’s clearly not the case.
I think it’s hard for anyone to keep seeking God when they feel like they don’t need Him. When I feel the need for Him, I get pissed at myself. I hate that I can’t maintain a relationship with my Creator. I hate that I keep going away from Him even though I see how it hurts. I want that long lasting relationship not a bonfire of leaves.
Where is your relationship with God at? Is it an “emergency only” relationship? Is it non-existent? Do you feel like you get farther and farther away from God with every day? Do you feel like you are too bad a person for God to care about? Or is your relationship with Him strong? Do you feel like you can take on anything because you have the most powerful person backing you up?
